A few months ago, I believe had already written a little blurb about how I’m a “cyclic” person, and go through interests in turns. Two months of this, three weeks of that, let’s switch to something else for six months long, then back to the first on the list. This pattern is also very easy to see in the way I handle my presence online, post on some blogs more often than on others depending on the times, and so on.
Well, I’m in another cycle now, the one of writing, and it’s been like a drug so far, albeit a good drug: getting published (more specifically, getting the novel I’m working on published) is one of my oldest and biggest goals in life, and when I’m giving myself the tools and chances to progress in that, as per opposition to spend whole evenings gaming or watching TV, i’m actually happy. Problem is… yes, as usual: exercising.
I’m still way too much on an all-or-nothing mindest when it comes to this. I tend to reason along lines similar to “if I do 20 mins of cardio only, it’s not useful: I should do a full hour”. Same goes for strength-training, that is, or for any other kind of sports. Fortunately, this attitude hasn’t leaked on my eating (if I eat a slice of pie at noon, I don’t “blow it” the rest of the day out of spite or whatever), yet for exercise, things have been a bit icky during the past two weeks.
And I need to get back on track, oh yes, I need it! If only my mind wasn’t so totally turned toward writing, and toward thinking “if I go for one hour to the gym, plus the commute, plus the shower and the little bit of socializing because I know everyone there and may even meet my future father-in-law, so this will take, oh gawd, two full hours of my day during which I can’t write!”. I know writing is good for my career. I love how I’ve been able to pull out 100 draft pages - a hundred, gee - in like ten days, which speaks for my level of motivation and inspiration. But I need to bust this little bottom of mine, still.
After some weird dream that made me wake up (as well as my boyfriend *coughs*) litterally letting out a scream around 5 am today, I decided to get up and enjoy the early morning. I love early mornings, especially in summer, when the air is still fresh and the sun starts to rise. Then I realized something: this was the perfect time to exercise. It’d make me feel energized for the rest of the morning, very likely, and I wasn’t into my daily writing rut yet, nor starting my normal, regular work (yes, the one that eats most of my day *laughs*. So I did it, for a good three quarters of a hour. Very much acceptable, even if not the maximum performance I can pull out.
I realized something else, too - that I should really view things differently. That even “only” 30 minutes, 20 minutes, hell, 10 minutes of exercise, is always, always better than nothing. And sure, I can squeeze in 10 minutes here and there. 10 minutes of jumping around or of (attempting at) making a few sets of push-ups. It’s not that bad, and it’s some kind of working out. (Alright, note too that I don’t consider “housework” and the likes as exercise; it’s more “normal activity” in my eyes.)
Tomorrow, at least, I’m scheduled to haul 30-kgs concrete blocks to help my boyfriend’s mother with her garden wall. This should give me a good dose of exercise. I’ll finally see if my strengthened abs can now really compensate for my bad lower back!
July 21st, 2005 at 01:16
I had to tell myself the same thing today. I wanted to do 45 min total of cardio and only got in 35 I think. I had to stop early because of an allergy attack. I was bummed until I realized it WAS better than doing nothing.
July 21st, 2005 at 04:19
I too have this ‘all or nothing’ mentality when it comes to exercise. When I recorded my exercise in my log, I realise that I only have cardio 1.5 hours a week! Eek. So, I’ve started exercising 20min early in the morning, and have 4 ‘intensive’ gym days where I spend 2 hours there (dressing, showering, goondess knows what else included). It’s helped - doing some yoga in the morning has boosted my concentration quite a bit!
July 22nd, 2005 at 06:35
Yuck, come to think of it, I used to exercise so much more a few weeks ago, when I think of actually comparing in terms of total hours like you do! One more incentive to bust my ass, hmmm?
November 18th, 2005 at 16:36
it takes alot of discipline to keep up on your goals but i guess every person has those moments.
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