Color Me Fit: weight loss, fitness, exercise

I’ve had sort of a rough night, spent waking up every two hours or so wondering if I was going to throw up or not. And trust me, when you live where I live, the last thing you want to do is having to enter one of the common bathroom stalls to shed your dinner in. You might end up puking more than is worth, since they’re alway so dirty, and it’s certainly not Nutella that I’ve seen on the walls at times.

I know who, or rather what to blame. It’s not McDonald’s. It’s not overeating, or adding too much of the wrong fats to my meal. No, it’s the tofu. A nice little pack of tofu that I opened last Sunday, and was supposed to last a week in the fridge in its little hermetic box filled with water, but that for some reason probably went a little sour. The other foods I ate yesterday were still good, this I am sure of, so it can only be the tofu.

Which is too bad, because now I cannot push myself to touch the remaining pack (left unopened, and still good as well, if I can trust the date on the lid). I hope this won’t left me scarred with disgust for weeks, because I really like tofu. Maybe I’ll switch again to that brown, bio tofu I’ve bought in the past, albeit more expensive than my current white variety.

Anyway. Yesterday evening, night, and today up to now (3 PM), I’ve felt slightly queasy, to say the least. In fact, I’ve been both hungry and queasy, which really doesn’t help. Most of my foods are whole and unprocessed, which unfortunately means strong smells, and strong smells aren’t very welcome right now. A friend who happens to have regular problems with nausea has given me sound advice about what to do in this case, so I’ve followed her advice with what I have at home, and at last it seems things are getting better.

Here’s the catch, though: I’ve prolly eaten stuff in a very disordered way. No nicely planned, carefully prepared meals. What’s been driving me was, basically, “I need to eat today and I AM hungry, so I’ll do as much damage control as possible, and eat what will make me feel the least queasy”.

Truth be told, I don’t like that. I don’t like that thought, because for me, it tends to be an open door to eating foods that aren’t really so great. So, at first, I was quite worried, hoping I wasn’t making bad choices, hoping I wasn’t accidentally overeating (yeah, uh, riiiight), and the likes. Besides, I didn’t go running this morning; it would have seriously upped my chances of dropping a dose of homemade pudding in the park nearby, and I don’t think the other runners need to see that.

Then it finally occurred to me that it wasn’t emotional, stress, boredom eating. It wasn’t wrong. It was just me trying to keep my body fed, not starving throughout the whole day, with the best means I had under the hand, while being a little under the weather. And those means, going both by smells and by the fact that I’ve managed to keep them down without feeling worse, were light rusks, good fruits, nothing cooked in fat, in brief–light foods, without any added crap anyway. Really, if I want to fret over calories, I can safely tell myself that I’m still far from blowing it today.

I’m relearning good tools and good portion control to get that healthy eating going. Now I also need to learn that at times, it’s okay if things are a little messy. After all, it’s not me being lazy and finding excuses to stuff myself with junk foods. It’s just me being a little sick today. It happens. I really don’t have to worry my head nor flail myself about that.

Though I really hope that my body will be back to its usual state tomorrow, because, like everyone else, I don’t like being sick!

Tags: sick, food, eating, problems