On this page the following entries were made in the “Dialogue” category.
I haven’t posted here in ages, so I think it’s time to dust off the blog again.
My three-year war on university is over. The last battles were long and tough ones, which is why I just stopped taking care of this place, but finally, I was victorious. After months of studying in spite of not [...]
Continue reading “News from the front” »
It all happened this morning, before going to work. There I was, sitting at the desk that I also use as kitchen table (you can’t win when you live in a one-room 20sqm apartment), my tiny spoon (I love tiny spoons) dipped in my bowl of muesli, casually re-reading, without paying too much attention, a [...]
Continue reading “Body Hate and Body Love” »
For the few lost souls out there who still have this blog on their ‘roll or RSS reader: I’m not dead (as evidenced from this post). It’s just that what I wrote here in October indeed turned true, and since I have little time to devote to my non-school activities, blogging has taken the back-burner.
Actually, [...]
Continue reading “Still Alive” »
Got you, huh?
Here’s a little update on things. After a good six months without focusing on weight matters, I realize that taking a ‘break’, if I may say so, was a good solution. A break from forums, websites, blogs and the likes, I mean, not a break from being reasonable when it comes to feeding [...]
Continue reading “I’ve Regained It All… NOT” »
Okay, so I’m not dead.
However, I suddenly noticed that the blog was unavailable. I don’t know for how longs things hadbeen this way, but since my webhost moved my files to a new server a couple or a few weeks ago, things probably went bonkers at that time, and I didn’t notice it at first, [...]
Continue reading “Just a word” »
I have decided to seriously tune down the amount of weight loss-related forums and blogs I read. Not because I don’t care at all. Not because I’m planning on denying my meager support to anyone (as if it was that useful to start with, haha). Simply because I feel that I cannot find my own [...]
Continue reading “Frustration” »
I’m going to start writing this post by being straightforward: the ’stop restricting’ way is supposed to be paved with good realizations, but also with bumps. Yesterday, I ran into one of these bumps. Today, I didn’t. Saturday, Friday, Thursday, I didn’t either. I knew and had already accepted that it would be this way.
However, [...]
Continue reading “Somehow, It Hurts” »
I’m still not done with my binging problem, but in the past days, I took some time to reflect in depth about all of this. In a way, it was easy: I’m on sick leave for the week, so I had lots of time on my hands, and a real need to think of something [...]
Continue reading “Diet Mentality” »
I always have that stupid feeling that people think ill of me about that… like, “well, she’s fat, she must eat a lot, no wonder she’s such a wimp about not eating her oh-so-holy-breakfast first thing in the morning”.
I caught myself writing this in a post on the 3FC forum earlier on. Well, to be [...]
Continue reading “Fat Thinking, Again” »
When I think of it some more, I realize that my problem with food is twofold, in a much contradictory way:
1) I like food too much.
2) I don’t care about food.
And this might be the very core of all this crap.
1) I like food too much: I don’t think I really self-medicate with food, but [...]
Continue reading “Relationship With Food” »
